Nervous

For the last 5 or 6 months I have been preparing for a major event in my life. As the months have past I have continually thought about (ok...obsessed) going to my 20 year class reunion. I know, I know, it is hard to believe, but it is very true. I have been out of school for 20 years. Now in this elapsing time frame I have also thought about all the things I need to do before I go to the reunion. Some of you might ask, what is there to "do" before, but if you know me even a little bit you know that I have written out lists of things to do...ie...lose weight (That is the biggest (no pun intended) and highest of priorities on the list.) what to wear, to lose weight, how to wear my hair, lose weight, get a mani and pedi, lose weight, and the list goes on from there. Because of the circumstances in my teen years due to a tramatic move, I had the option of going to not only one reunion but two. However, I chose not to attend the reunion in Alamosa where I actually graduated. I didn't like nor did they like me and I felt no desire what so ever to attend. There were only a couple of people I even considered seeing if I did go. But I didn't!
HOWEVER
My reunion in Granby is this coming weekend July 31/Aug 1 and I am so freakin nervous! I seriously have lost sleep for the last 6 or 7 nights and to top it all off I have had the mother of all migraines for 5, yes 5 days straight. My stomach hurts, my head hurts and all this for a couple of days with friends I haven't seen in 22 years. I even had my friends from Monticello and Colorado Springs as well as my brother and daughter help me pick out to wear. Why should I care, it is only Granby "for cryin in the beer cheese soup!!" I, and don't laugh when you read this, have even had to talk to my psychiatrist about this. TWICE!!
So what the heck, why am I so nervous?
Because...I have no idea!!